First... I do not think of myself as a highly intellectual person. So, no, I don't feel my thoughts on life are all that important. BUT, I am writing about this because I feel I need more deep thought, and writing is a good way to get your brain working and.. oh, pondering.
So, thus starts the "Random quote and response section".
I am going to pick a book off of my bookshelf and take a quote from it, then reflect on what that quote could mean to me in my present state of mind or being. Or just babble on until I am sufficiently bored.
#1. This quote is an interview of a schizophrenic;
"'What else do the neighbors do?'
'They put all kinds of lies in the papers about me.'
'What paper?'
'The morning paper. They change the names around so they will puzzle people.'
'What names do they substitute for you?'
'Hitler and Mussolini'"
'Are you Hitler?'
'I don't know. You can tell by the stars and my handwriting.'"
-Abnormal Psychology By James D. Page
I realize this is rather sad that this person has a disease that puts them at such a distance from reality, but when I think about it, it seems safe for them. Never having to deal with reality because that's not the world you live in. Granted, some of the worlds these people live in are much worse than reality, so I do not envy them. But, knowing that what you see isn't real, I wonder if they believe that real things are fake, and fake things are real?
Would you be able to pick and choose what you want to be real and what you want to be fake? Accept only the good and reject the bad? Ever since I was young I wanted to work with the.. disturbed people. The ones with real problems. Even the Sociopaths. I stopped wanting to be a psychiatrist because I knew I would end up talking to people that are stressed out or just want someone to talk to. And as much as I think it's sometimes a noble cause, I don't think I could listen to it all day. I don't think I could be kind and caring to everyone. I would get to a point where I would want to yell and scream to GET OVER IT!
But then that would make me a real hypocrite, considering I go through the same every day struggles and issues and don't seem to be making that much progress myself. Lately I have been trying arts and crafts, and writing, anything to help me get in touch with my real feelings. It's hard, after burying them deep down for so long. Changing old habits, not the easiest thing in the world. But for now, this is one of my attempts at keeping my sanity, and hopefully one day, to find peace with myself.
Just because... I took this picture, and seals are plump and lazy.
