Sickness

I always forget how miserable it is to be sick. A simple cold can completely ruin your weekend. What's worse, is that I'm sick in summer. It's about 100 degrees outside. Not exactly the kind of weather that makes you want to lay in bed all day. I can't sleep, I can't sleep, I can't relax, I'm just sick.

In other news, my car is fixed, which is a huge relief. Now I just have to worry about school, and money. But what else is new?

Recently, I've realized how much I have matured in the past year or so. Although I have a LONG way to go, it's nice to see the progress. Amanda and I went to see "Super bad," which looked somewhat alluring from the previews. Anyways, it was a complete letdown. There were all kinds of people my age, from my school who were there watching it, and they were all laughing hysterically. Amanda and I, on the other hand, were bored. I was rather disgusted by the immaturity of it. I just don't see how it's so amusing. I don't know, maybe I'm a prude, maybe I'm naive. Or maybe it's something more, something better. Maybe I see the meaning behind life, and rules, and holding on to values that so many others throw away.

Whatever it is, I am definitely different from many of my peers. It could be why it's hard for me to find good friends, they're all so jaded by worldly things. Don't get me wrong, I'm not perfect, not even close. But I do see the value in certain things.

For one thing, I like being an optimist. Even in my teenage depression, I was optimistic. I knew it wouldn't last forever, even though my state of mind at the time told me different. Even now, in my thirst for change, I know that if I work hard enough things will get better. I look forward to unknown of the future. There are still many opportunities and possibilities that are open to me. I just hope I have the courage and strength to reach out and grab them.